小歪现在播放的歌,也就是我最近常常听的歌。
      Gotta Have You,必须拥有你。
      最近像疯了一样下载folk的专辑,于是找到Weepies。和很多folk一样,这首也是安安静静的,那样轻巧的吉他,还有干净的女声在静静地唱。
       这首歌似乎没有很出彩的地方,但是打动我的,就是不断repeat的那段。
                No amount of coffee
                No amount of crying
                No amount of whiskey
                No amount of wine
                No, no,no,no,no
                Nothing else will do
                I've gotta have you
                I've gotta have you
      那样轻巧的旋律,却因此而百转千回,柔情深种。
      如同叶片间斑驳的阳光,碎金般的模样,却因为落在忧伤的人眼里,变得苍白。

      玉琳国师说:“我非无情，只是情到深处泪转多。试问多少人间真情，不是在泪水中结束?”爱上一个让自己说“Gotta have you”的人的人,常常就是不容易动情的人。爱上了,浑然不觉,不知从何时开始。等到有一天意识到有什么地方出错,才发现自己早就开始容易泪眼婆娑。
      玉琳国师是个明白人,看透了业力,知道儿女情长,最后也难脱苦海。然而像我这等尘世俗子,却常常觉得,有这么一个人,虽然心痛,却也未尝不是一件幸福的事。不像某些女孩,连值得拥有这句话的人也找不到,一颗芳心无处可托。

       最近很多身边的人,都想尝试去拥有一种新的关系。恋爱。找个人来爱,而那个人又碰巧是爱自己的,应该会很幸福,起码,也会很快乐。可惜这样的念想,不是念想就可以得到的。想起自己以前还信誓旦旦地说,读大学一定要谈一场恋爱。上了大学,有书影音相伴,过得很安宁。想起婉儿姐姐曾经对我说:“上天啊,给我一个人来爱吧,真讨厌现在的心像死水一样!”我的心不静,易喜易悲易怒,但是却再也没有想到过风月。因为那个关于爱情的缺口,已经被某个人填满了。
       Rhett说Scarlett对Ashley的爱那样“像女学生一样的迷恋”,我对他,似乎是这样又不是这样。有时,应该说是常常,想起他。那个几乎只存在于我的想象的人,却也支撑了我世界中的某一部分。但他也不总是那样虚幻,以前和现在加起来的接触和了解,让他在我心里渐渐地明晰。让我相信有些事真的是written in the stars。

      早就学会了不去强求,因为不是每个女孩都有唱《越人歌》的船家女那样的福气。更何况某人,与我最近的距离是在我的守望里?
      于是很喜欢歌里反反复复的一段,柔肠百结,一唱三叹。那么安静的爱,却分明唱出一个女孩的无奈和无悔。有时,我也想像这个女孩一样,可以让心如一只啁啾的鸟儿般时而欣喜时而忧伤。可以一遍一遍地说I gotta have you,不然,我的世界会冰冷。那么肆无忌惮也那么一往无前,只因为我可以触碰你的世界,你就在我的眼前。这是,何等的运气?            
               Gray, quiet and tired and mean
               Picking at a worried seam
               I try to make you mad at me over the phone
               Red eyes and fire and signs
               I'm taken by a nursery rhyme
               I want to make a ray of sunshine and never leave home

              No amount of coffee
              No amount of crying
              No amount of whiskey
              No amount of wine
              No, nothing else will do
              I've gotta have you
              I've gotta have you

              The road gets cold
              There's no spring in the middle this year
              I'm the new chicken clucking open hearts and ears
              Oh, such a prima donna
              Sorry for myself
              But green, it is also summer
              And I won't be warm till I'm lying in your arms

              No amount of coffee
              No amount of crying
              No amount of whiskey
              No amount of wine
              No, nothing else will do
              I've gotta have you
              I've gotta have you

              I see it all through a telescope
              Guitar, suitcase, and a warm coat
              Lying in the back of the blue boat, Humming a tune

 
             No amount of coffee
             No amount of crying
             No amount of whiskey
             No wine
             No, nothing else will do
             I've gotta have you
             I've gotta have you
             No amount of coffee
             No amount of crying
             No amount of whiskey
             No amount of wine
             No, nothing else will do
             I've gotta have you
             I've gotta have you

             I've gotta have you
             Gotta have you
             I've gotta have you